From the title post you can probably guess what this small blurb is going to be about. So its been a while since I have been on blogger and I definitely should have not let that happen. For one, I feel like if there were people out in this crazy cyber world that were reading my blog they were all probably wondering where I went and did I fall off the the face of the earth. I am still here and continue to be here for a couple of different reasons.
When I started blogging I was enjoying it because it gave me a way to express what is on my mind and share it with people. I originally started this blog so I could share my journey with people into my first bodybuilding competition. It was going great until I decided to slam the breaks on that and wait until next year to do a show. At that point, which was just a couple of weeks ago things started to go downhill for me personally. I decided since I was not doing a competition any more I can let up on my diet and start enjoying the foods around that I have deprived myself of for so long. It was especially easy for me to do this with the fall season approaching and all the apple and pumpkin flavors of food were being released. Let up on my diet would be just a tad bit false on the route I dove into. I completely let go of "clean eating" and it created a monster in me I am not proud of.
As I write this blog entry, I am reflecting back on the last 2-3 weeks and realize how dissapointed I am with myself with my eating habits. I lost touch with myself and the values I possess and tried "fitting in" with the crowd around me. Particularly the people I work with. A quick background of where I work is in a distribution plant for a convenient store here in Upstate New York and Western Vermont. There is always free food in our break rooms and that is where my downfall begins. When I say always free food of some sort, I mean ALWAYS!!! We are talking multiple boxes of donuts, free bags of chips, frozen chicken patties, sausages, egg patties, burgers, boxes of muffins and the item the company is famous for in my opinion, its ice cream. On top of this, we have big coolers in each of our break rooms that stock multiple flavors of drinks, milk and bottled water.
All these goodies being out in the open for the taking started my downfall of terrible eating habits. I have been consuming all the food they had to offer and then some. When I was dieting and not eating any of that kind of food, I could easily pass by a table filled with free donuts, muffins etc. and not blink or think twice about it. My will power was crazy and I loved that about myself. I started to eat this food and my taste buds were loving it! Unfortunately I was loving it too much. I couldn't just stop at having one donut, I had to have two or even three. I would then have some take out food that my co workers would order and have some more junk to eat. Every day would start to be like this and I have now noticed a significant increase in my weight, the way my body physically looks and my motivation to do anything gym related went out the window.
I literally fell of the wagon and was being dragged and beaten down. Well today, enough is enough. I am not happy right now with how I feel or even I how I look. I am starting my normal gym routine up again, I am going to start eating clean again and I am very excited about this. I am also going to keep up with my blog posts and also posts some recipes that I come up with or have tried and want to share.
I know this blog post is very unorganized and all over the place. If you have made it this far into the post, thank you for interest and patience with reading this post haha. I needed to get this off my chest and I knew this would be a good place to do it. I also want to just say thank you to my AMAZING wife who has kept my head up and keeps me in a positive state of mind. She supports me and my goals no matter where I am with them in my life. She is such a positive person and it really rubs off onto me and keeps me going. You can see this in her blog posts as well and if you are not following her, you should. She will make a bad day into a good one just by reading one of her posts. The link to her blog will be at the bottom of this post.
"Learn from the past, set vivid, detailed goals for the future, and live in the only moment of time over which you have any control: now" -Denis Waitley
My amazing wife's blog! Check it out!! Run like a G!
That little roller coaster you were on has been the story of my life since I decided not to compete 3 years ago. It's so hard to stay on track without that massive goal in front of you! But I found that the blog community is incredibly motivating, and since I started blogging last year I have gotten so much better.
ReplyDeleteGood Luck!
I fell of the wagon with my fitness goals for a few weeks at the end of the summer. Between vacation and birthdays it was just so hard to eat well. I agree with Jess, it's also hard without a huge goal and a deadline. Ever since my half marathon in May I've been struggling with sticking to a specific schedule. Last week Sean and I made a new gym plan so hopefully we'll hold each other accountable. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to see that you're focusing on getting back on track with what makes you feel good! That is the most important thing after all.